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Name: David
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
Birthday: 7/26/1983
Gender: Male
Interests: Falling in love with Jesus and serving Him with a whole heart because I have. Overcoming fear with love. Becoming a warrior and a gentleman. Relationships. Getting uncomfortable, stepping back to see the bigger picture, looking outside myself, getting hyped up on Reeses peanut butter cups and coffee. You know those junior high kids that run around everyhwere? They're great. All of them. I love my friends, spending time with them, listening, being available. Music, playing it, listening to it, writing it. Racing my JDM FD3S Rx-7 like mad!!!! I'm all about sports, but that doesn't really happen anymore..... And anything reckless and dangerous...oh yeah! I"m there.
Expertise: Ha, funny joke!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Construction
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  MacStudly2
MSN: livextreme41@msn.com
Yahoo:  Xtremelife41
Member Since:
2/28/2005
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| So our building caught on fire today. Other than that it's been business as usual.
http://cbs2chicago.com/video/?id=27633@wbbm.dayport.com
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| I am locked in a prison I made for myself and worrying about what is happening outside of it instead of how to get out. I decided today that I have become entirely too caught up in anything that is not the current moment. That is not here and now, that is an end with no means. Some are ideals, and i know that I have far too many.
As my thoughts continued to unroll I looked up to see a sudden Flash, and the downpour of rain beginning. Opportunity was knocking so I opened the door and went for a run, unsure whether or not I was running away.
Running down the Lakeshore all alone, (nobody else was dumb enough to be out) I thought of the paraylisis of many decisions and the fear of making the wrong one. This infinitely complex permutation of progressive decisions that we make is paralyzing as a whole, and though i was not concerned with the multitude of decisions, a mere few are more than enough to bring my thought process to a screeching halt , and slowly back away in case I might be gored.
I feel that a lack of control is more adventurous and free spirited, that I am ableto experience a multitude of things in a short period, yet i desire order...or control, I find them to be the same. I find my life caught in tension between order and chaos. If there is too much order, everything is the same and there isn't room for creativity or newness.
Everything must fit a singular pattern. If there is too much chaos nothing can
last long enough to create anything useful; everything becomes disorder that
destroys the creativity before it can develop. The complexity of ongoing issues, worries, stress, and incapacities each lead to a futher complex system that is overwhelming as a whole ,and crippling if seen so strictly as to reveal and view only one scenario at a time. So I find that I am unable to comprehend the whole, yet incapable of dealing with the multiple permutations of each decision, so I must accept the complexity and wonder if there is an answer.
These simple, familiar, but powerful words of truth emerged through the downpour. "Your Word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path."
P.S. Dance in the rain, it's soo good for you. Just don't get caught by the cops.
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| So I finally have an apartment! That has been so for sometime, but now i have internet access, and i can share my joy with you through the wonders of xanga. Woohoo!
Boy it's hard to be content with some things.
Prov 25:2
It is the Glory of God to conceal things, but it is the glory of kings to search things out.
Deut 29:29
The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the thingsthat are revealed belong to us and to ourr children forever, that we may do all the words of this law.
Just some stuff I've been thinking about lately. I really have no wisdom or insight to give. Know that I love all of you and want to hear from you. If I have not called you, i have not intended to forget, I have been busy. Call the cell 3037751981.
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